So I was riding high at the start of the week. I think my old blue print heard the word Bye week for our class. Then it came at me strong. I let everything get in the way. I let myself do half __ __ __ work. First it is was helping a friend on Monday and Tuesday night. Both nights I really did not concentrate on my readings like normal when I got home. (past midnight both nights) Wednesday was getting ready for the holiday. Thursday was the holiday. Friday I was not feeling well. Saturday was just a lazy day. My God I wasted a whole week doing everything at half speed. Yes I still read and thought about everything. My issue is I can do better. I did not put my whole self into anything this week.
Funny thing is I guess that means something has changed. I am holding myself accountable. I really feel like I stole from myself. I did not give it my all and I know it. I am also not lying to myself about it. I know I cheated me. When I read the man on the wall. I had to look myself in the eyes and know I only cheated me.
So where do we go from here? I am not a quitter. I will work through this. I will step my game up. This is the most important work I have ever done. I love doing this. It makes me feel empowered and good about Jeff. I feel passion. I feel love. I give more so I get more.
I promise to
I am Whole, Perfect, Strong, Powerful, Harmonious, and Happy.
I always keep my promises.
Peace and love Jeff